Chapter 42

[00:00:00] Go out to la. To la. [00:00:04] Somebody need to do a song for la. Straight up. [00:00:13] Hello, my name is Elaine and I'll be your tour guide through South Central Los Angeles. Look, count my nose. Smoke up. I'm from California. Where you from? So what? I'm from California. [00:00:26] California, this is Los Angeles. Well, where we going? West. Word. [00:00:33] Oh my God, I did not see that person right there. This is the birthday edition. [00:00:39] Might sound a little bit different than usual, cuz I'm out in the. In these streets and I'm currently about to go pick up 12 count. We about to hit these LA streets. That's what we about to go do. We about to. We about to be in these streets. Probably go somewhere on the east side for a little bit. [00:00:57] Somewhere. Somewhere in Watts maybe. I don't know. We might go. I might take 12 cows to the jungles. [00:01:04] I might take them to the jungle. Not in there. We might pass by. But we definitely about to get outside just for a little bit. At the time of this recording, we had just finished having lunch. Y'all remember the infamous bet that we had? I think I told y'all about the bet that we had that I won the Dodger vs. The Yankees World Series bet. Don't need to get. I don't. I don't need to keep clubbing cats over the head with, with the Dodgers win. Although it still feels great especially, especially with the, with the birth of. Of Dodger Blue. The track on gnx. Oh man, that's a. That's just a refreshing, refreshing track right there. Any. [00:01:51] You know, recently Brit was out here. Brit was out here the same weekend 12 cow was out, you know, was out here. Dolomite pulled up to the crib. It was like a Power Ranger convention, you know what I'm saying? All we met up for lunch and it was a real ghetto brunching, you know what I'm saying? The wifey was there, Marcy was there, you know what I'm saying? Even the kids was there. The kids was in attendance or whatever. Me and, me and Brit and the family went to the Lakers game when they played Portland where, where Braun didn't play. [00:02:31] If y'all listen to overrun, I think I talked about it overrun last week, but this is my birthday episode. [00:02:39] My birthday episode. And yeah, we are here with it. We are here with this. This is actually my birthday slash. Is this my birthday slash? [00:02:51] This might be the. Yeah, I think this might be it, right? No, this is not it. This is not the last episode of the year because my birthday is on the 23rd. So at the time of this recording, I had to record my episode early. [00:03:06] And you know, my birthday is not here, but my birthday is coming up. My birthday is on the 23rd and I'll be turning 40. Two of them things. 42 of those things. [00:03:23] What do I feel thus far? [00:03:26] I just feel old. [00:03:28] You know what I'm saying? Nothing, nothing too crazy. I just feel older, I guess. Much wiser as well. That's a beautiful thing. [00:03:40] What I. What have I noticed this year in general? I might save that. I know me and Brit. [00:03:48] I was supposed to end the year with the. [00:03:52] The verses between Eddie Murphy and Martin Lawrence characters kind of a versus battle. [00:04:01] But I think I'm going to push that into January 2025. And the reason being is because I did have a idea episode of how I wanted to wrap up 2024. But this one, the. The episode before that one is my birthday episode. And it's just reflecting on this year and previous years. [00:04:26] And I would say the difference between this year and last year is I didn't really travel well. I did travel a lot this year, but I guess it was desired places that I wanted to go to because last year was major, because we went to. [00:04:50] We went to Hawaii and we went to Jamaica. Hawaii and Jamaica. This year for my birthday, we're going to Cabo in Mexico. And then we got a huge trip at the end of the year. [00:05:07] So that's gonna be a dope one. [00:05:13] But as far as like traveling and stuff like that, you know, I had a couple of. I kind of had a couple of work traveling events that I went to. Catalina, I want to say, was San Fran this year. [00:05:33] I think San Francisco was easier. I'm not sure. I gotta check. I know I may have talked about it on the episode. It could have been earlier this year. [00:05:43] Where else did we go? Where else did we go? I can't think. I can't think about where we went to earlier this year. Except for Catalina, but you know, the big 40 deuce. [00:05:59] It's a beautiful thing, man. It's a beautiful thing. And I'm kind of like, you know, we're kind of doing like a joint little celebration, kind of a post celebration for 12 cow and a pre celebration for myself. [00:06:16] We just gonna cruise down Crenshaw. That's what I'm gonna do. I would. You know, we was talking about, you know, British said, you know, she wish she could have stayed longer. And technically 12 Cal was supposed to stay longer, but you know, he had something that. Something important to come up to where he cut his trip short. And he's going to be leaving in a couple of days rather than leaving this weekend. So, you know this. I got a small window of us to cruise down, cruise down the shop for a little bit, show him a little. Couple of. A couple of areas and things of that nature and just chill talk, listen to some music. I'm throwing, you know, I'm throwing a West coast playlist. Be all, you know, my. The stereotype types is heavy over here. [00:07:09] I'm gonna throw on. [00:07:12] I'm gonna throw on a West coast playlist and we going, we're gonna ride down Crenshaw for a little bit and then I'm gonna take them back. I'm gonna go back to work. [00:07:22] And my daughter is having her first gymnastics event coming up. That's coming up. I should be going. I'm going to like an amateur wrestling thing soon as well. [00:07:36] It's just a lot of stuff. Just a lot of stuff. Just a lot of stuff. But reflecting on this year. This year was solid, you know. [00:07:46] This year was solid. [00:07:48] I'm glad I'm, you know, I'm making it. We haven't completely made it out of this year, but I'm glad I was able to make it to my birth month so far. [00:08:00] I enjoy, I enjoy my birthday and where it's at. [00:08:05] I know some people wish that they had like certain birthdays, like summer birthdays. Some people like spring birthdays and things like that mostly so they could. So they could party. I'm talking about the people that like to party. I'm gonna roll up this window because right now I'm cruising. I'm in Beverly Hills right now. I need to find a bathroom because I have to use the bathroom real bad. I'm not gonna tell you which one, if it's one or two, but just know I have to use bathroom really, really, really bad. So I might pause this and. [00:08:37] Yeah, you know, some certain people wanna, you know, they wanna have certain birthdays and certain times of the year so they could inv. People. They know my birthday is December 23rd. [00:08:51] You couldn't, you couldn't find a worst birthday to celebrate with a lot of people than that outside of actually Christmas Day or the day after Christmas. Like that week leading up to. And that leak that week after is just. It's bad if you're looking for a group of people to come out and celebrate with you. Why? Because even after my birthday is Christmas and then after Christmas, you looking at the new year, you know what I'm saying, like, a lot of people are traveling to places that they want to be with the people that they love the most or they want to be around the most. So, you know, that's one thing, but I actually enjoy it. I am a Capricorn for whatever that means to y'all. Whatever they said about a Capricorn, that is true. We're like the black sheep of zodiac signs. [00:09:41] Whatever they say about Capricorn, they never have switched it up. They call us anything other than. [00:09:48] Other than God's child. You know what I mean? So. But this is. I love it. I love it. I don't shy away from it. I don't try to fight it. It is who he is. If you believe in a whole zodiac sign, dive into it and know that, yes, I believe everything that they say about us is extremely true. I've, I've definitely reflected and, and tried to be objective in certain things, but no, it's true. It's. And in some, in some ways, certain traits that they say we, that we have, it might be higher for some, it might be lower for others. And then you also have the January Capricorns and stuff like that. [00:10:35] But at the end of the day, a Capricorn is a Capricorn. Man. I'm over here in Beverly Hills and it's such a tight traffic squeeze, so you're gonna hear this damn car go, I got a phone call. Sorry about that. I got a phone call. [00:10:53] I don't even know where I was at. I don't know where I left off at. [00:10:57] Let me see if I can think where I left off at. I'm just gonna have to start somewhere new anyhow. [00:11:04] I'm enjoying my pre birthday. Like I said, I'm going to. I'm going ahead to pick up 12 Cal right now. We're going to attempt to cruise this shawl. In the meantime, I am going to pause this because I have to go use the bathroom. And you know when, you know when you really got to use the bathroom and you can't really think. You don't want. You don't want nobody to talk to you. That's one. You know what I'm saying? And you just so happen to be in a shitload of traffic. [00:11:36] That is the current. And you in traffic and you like in the area where they got all like these small businesses and like the LA city law, accident attorneys like, nigga, where is a goddamn target at? Or something to where I can go use a goddamn bathroom? I can't find. And I Am when I tell you I am in. I am in bumper to bumper traffic right now. This is on the street, you know, and it's 3:17 right now. [00:12:06] That's. It's always, it's always cracking down here. But I should be coming up on something and. Oh, I'm passing by. I'm about to come up on Fairfax. All right, I shall be back, people. [00:12:16] All right, so we back at it. I wanted to go use the restroom. [00:12:20] I needed that. Crazy part is I asked the dude, I said, hey, man, where y'all restrooms at? Yeah, you know, I'm. Y'all got restrooms? He said, sometimes. [00:12:30] What is that supposed to mean, bro? [00:12:34] Point me to the restroom so I can let this lizard do his thing. You know what I mean? [00:12:45] Let's get back to the birthday episode. [00:12:49] What am I going to do for my birthday? I am going to be in Cabo with my shirt off, my man boobs, my. [00:12:58] Basically my dad bought my wine belly. I mean, I've lost. I've lost about 10, 10 pounds though. I've been eating kind of good. Yeah, I'm trying to get in shape a little bit. [00:13:14] Yeah, I'm just gonna be chilling, man. I'm gonna be relaxing. I don't think I'm gonna do anything crazy on my birthday. I mean, it's Christmas. [00:13:21] We come home. I think we come home the day after Christmas, if I'm not mistaken. [00:13:27] Let me get ready for the big trip. [00:13:33] I don't know, I've just been. I think we just been chilling this year. Just a lot of. Continue to do the whole family shit, you know, just chilling, man. It seemed like this year alone, it was a lot. It was a lot. It was a lot going on this year as far as like, you know, getting your. Getting our emotions in check. You know, that's including me and the family. You know, this, this is the year where my son graduated from high school and now he's in the workforce. You know, he's working, he's working. And so that's different. He has his own car now, and that's different. So, you know, he out and about driving everywhere he can. He could possibly drive, you know. And my daughter, like I said, her first gymnastics event is coming up this weekend. So I'm excited about that. It's like we're back into the whole AAU circuit all over again, but in a different sport. [00:14:36] Theirs is just spread it out. It's not like, you know, when my son, his shit was his. His tournaments was damn near every fucking weekend. [00:14:45] Two to three days, you know what I mean? It was just a bit much, but you get used to it. Like when you. If you. If you had a child that played football or basketball, then, you know, you already know that life. Like, you pretty much dedicate at least 30 to 40% of your life of that the other year to that because it was. It's a tournament like football. [00:15:14] Football is different. Well, it's not that much different because there's one game on a Saturday, Saturday morning or Saturday afternoon. [00:15:25] We rarely had games that were, like, at night, you know, we had. We did have some games that went into the night, you don't get me wrong. But most of the games would be in the morning, you know. But he stopped playing football, like, years ago, you know. But we was used to it. He had been playing basketball since he was like, shit, I can't even tell you since he was like, what, eight or nine? I mean, probably before that when he was playing for the parks, but as far as traveling basketball for a long time. So, you know, we didn't travel out of state for games and, you know, just, you know, distant gyms, like in California and shit like that, from LA to the Bay. [00:16:09] So you kind of get used to it. And with gymnastics, they don't have events like every weekend, so that's. That's cool. But you get used to it, you know, so we got that and then, you know, just work as usual and trying to figure out how we could just keep getting better financially and mentally get better, you know, that's what we've been working on. [00:16:33] I'm getting older, Big dog. [00:16:36] Like, now the goal is to get to my mid-40s, you know, and I'm. And I'll be halfway to the halfway point now at 42, starting to realize. I think I was realizing this. This like in my mid-30s, though, like when I was 35, started to realize, like, you know, presents. I'm always love presents. I'm always love to get some type of present under the tree or for my birthday. I can mostly say under the tree because, like I said, my birthday is two days before Christmas, so. [00:17:15] And me and my wife always do this thing where we'll open up a present or two on Christmas Eve or something like that. It's dope. But, you know, like I said, this, this. This year we'll be in Cabo. So I think we leave on my birthday. We get to, you know, we leave early on my birthday, so I'll be in. I'll be in the air on my birthday. [00:17:45] Yeah man, about to go pick up 12 cow and we just gonna be chilling, man. Just be chilling. I said we had a marathon burger today, hella good. Hey, in and out. You better count your dollars bucko. Because they got, they got a smash burger over there that's fucking is. I'm with it, I'm with it. I like it. Now is the Miller. Is the price range kind of crazy? I mean I guess if you consider it as a black owned business, you know what I mean? Because we expect some type of discount or something like that towards the black consumers. But no, I mean is that. You know what, now that I think about it, in and out is because you're not gonna find a burger place that's somewhat cheaper. [00:18:33] Is there is some out here and just as good or even better, there's a lot more better burger spots out here to in and out. But that's just, you know they give, they give California the face card for that. Even though it started did y'all know? And then now started in Florida if I'm not mistaken. [00:18:51] But you know, we claim it, you know, it's a lot. It's a shitload of in and outs out here and it's a good burger, you know, animal style fries and like that. Animal style everything. It's. And the prices have always been. The prices always been good even though they've gone up. [00:19:08] But the prices has always been reasonable and good like that. But the marathon 20 bucks man. Out the gate. Out the gate. Is it worth it? Well, yeah, I gotta say it is because any meal, the average meal is between 15 and 20 now. And if you. Well, I'm. I've been losing a lot of weight and my appetite hasn't been as big as it was back in the day. So I can't say that it's gonna get the average person full, but it different. We ate that burger about, I don't know, about two hours ago, maybe two. Yeah, somewhere around two hours ago. Two or three hours ago. [00:19:48] And I'm good. I'm. I'm not gonna eat nothing until dinner tonight. [00:19:55] I think that's it, man. Did a little bit of self reflecting and, and as I do every year and multiple times a year too. Like I just think about stuff, you know, I just think about life in general, where I'm at, where I want to be. Sound like Daniel Jones and shit. And on to the next chapter, man. On the next chapter. What I've realized this year is that people still want to be a part of something, which is dope. People still have very heavy, opinionated stance. [00:20:36] People are still lost, though, that's a fact, but can't do nothing about that. One thing that I have learned about this year is that I do my best on not involving myself in a lot of just social media trends. [00:20:57] As far as like negative trends, I should say some trends are just dope to be a part of for the moment, you know. Other than that, it's like, hopefully in 2025, I know it's not going to stop because it's still a concept, it's still fresh to a lot of people. But niggas got to stop popping balloons. I'm pretty sure they still want to do it. It's attention grabber. So it's going to, for what it's worth, it's going to sell clout. That's what it's going to sell. So that's always going to be there to a certain degree, until it's not lead. Them damn balloons. Like, need those balloons. We need those balloons for so many goddamn reasons. Birthdays, anniversaries, you know, even funerals. They. They got balloons at funerals. Stop busting all these goddamn balloons. You know what else? [00:21:55] Relationship topics. That ties into the whole red balloon. [00:22:00] It's a lot, man. It's a lot. God bless everybody, bro. I want everybody to win. I just want everybody to be. [00:22:08] I want everybody to be real with themselves, you know what I'm saying? Like, just be real with themselves. I was. I was talking with somebody today and I was like, like, these youngsters, you know, especially the ones that's in. That's still in their 20s. Not all of them, obviously, not all. So don't get offended. Like, you know what? In 2025, you wanna. You wanna know what I want y'all to work on, including myself in certain situations. [00:22:36] But a lot of you that's in y'all 20s from 20 to 29, and some of y'all that early 30 get on my nerves too, because them is weird. A lot of you, early 30, it's weird, you know what I'm saying? Because early. Let me say this, the early 30s, let's just stick with the 20s. Right now they just have a different mindset. They business mind is like. Like they have the idea of the business mindset, you know, and they got different type of. That they could do nowadays to make money. [00:23:16] But they gotta stop taking so personal, man. [00:23:20] They gotta stop acting like the world is against them. Like, you know what I'm saying? [00:23:28] Is soft, man. [00:23:31] Is soft, bro. [00:23:33] Soft and cloudy. That's all it is, man. We gotta stop. We gotta start. You got. And no, you know what it is? Gotta stop being corny. That's what it is. You could go ahead be soft. You could be soft all you want. As a matter of fact, we know, we know certain is soft, you know what I'm saying? [00:23:55] Carl Anthony Townsend soft, but the go out there, he could hoop, you know what I'm saying? He come off corny, but he's soft and that know. We know he saw Rudy go bear soft, you know what I'm saying? But just don't be a corny, though. That's the one thing I don't like. I don't like corny, and I don't like corny content as I got it. I got to criticize it at this point. Is it gonna stop? No. Because corny cringy is still entertainment. [00:24:31] It is. So as long as see that, they gonna get their numbers ran up, are views ran up, are they going to get some type of feedback, whether it's positive or negative. They don't keep doing that corny shit, man. I see niggas do corny shit all the time on the Internet. I listen to their shows a lot of y'all. A lot of shows that I'm personally, like, fans of. Like, niggas have come off and said some corny shit are acting corny, and it's like, why? And I really question niggas who got who, who coming up with corny content and then posting it on social media. [00:25:10] That lets me know that, you know, this is corny and you grabbing attention at all costs. That's the corny part. [00:25:19] I. I respect niggas on their stance. I respect niggas on their beliefs, whatever they believe in, whatever they like, who they like, how they like it, and stuff like that. But when you go out your way to be corny to prove that you don't like this and you over like that, that's corny to me. Ask Corn. Ask this corn. I'm just calling you. I'm calling it how I see it. I call it. This is corny, Big Dog. And niggas don't have to do that, though. That's the thing. They don't have to do that. I think more and more I'll be thinking why niggas just can't, like, be themselves. [00:25:57] I don't know if they feel like being themselves is not enough, but even then, that's just them not being themselves. Being yourself is enough, and just go find a group of people look, you already got family or friends and that with you. Stick with them. Stop trying to go get new people acting new. You know what I'm saying? Just be yourself, man. That is okay, man. Like, I respect who are, who they are, who they truly are. Just stick with your, stick with your original personality. Don't change it up, man. Everybody got an alter ego. I understand that. [00:26:33] But when you got to go down that corny route, it's like, come on, dawg. Come on, man. You gotta show me something better than that, man. [00:26:42] You guys show me and I'ma still love you. [00:26:46] I'm still love you till I don't. Still love you till I don't. Hey, I don't have no advice at the age of 42, but I will say this. [00:27:02] My bad. Got another phone call. [00:27:07] Yeah. So happy birthday to me, man. I'm not too far away from picking up 12 cal. Like I said, me and 12 cal gonna kick it. Things of that nature. [00:27:17] I've experienced a lot this year. I've experienced, in all honesty, I haven't. I haven't experienced too much failure this year. I haven't. That's. And that's a good thing. There hasn't been too many years where I'm like, dang, were you like when you searching for like certain wins? And I gotta be grateful anyway because my past couple of years has been very eventful, prideful, you know, traveling the whole nine, like, so I can't really complain. It's just, it comes with a lot of ups and downs. You just gotta, you know, you just gotta get through it. You just got to get through it, man. That's all you got to do is just get through it. At the end of the day, this year was on pretty much on cruise control. [00:28:02] And just like any other year, you're going to have your certain pockets of downtime and like that. [00:28:09] Continue to talk with people, continue to keep in touch with people. Make sure you don't try to like tackle this alone. I think now I, I am an advocate for having some alone time to yourself. Let me drink some water real quick. [00:28:25] I do you. I do think you have to be alone for a little bit just to do some self reflection or just to have some peace in mind to yourself, you know. And I think, I think I do a lot of that because I can do a lot of that because how my work schedule is, so I'm able to have certain pockets of me just tending to myself, you know. But even if you are at home and amongst your family and you need it just find some time to yourself and just isolate yourself in the house. And just whether it's five minutes, a couple of hours, or even a majority of the day, maybe not the whole day. Because if you a family man or a family woman, you. I don't know if you can go to the whole entire day without having some type of interaction with somebody, you know, but yeah, man, at the end of the day, we just got to. [00:29:27] We gotta take care of ourselves, you know? But don't. Don't isolate yourself too much, though. You know what I'm saying? Don't, don't, don't, don't. Don't be quiet from the world too much to where people gotta call and check up on you. You know, it's always a good thing when people call and check up on you. Don't get me wrong. And I myself has isolated myself from other people because sometimes I'm just don't feel like talking. [00:29:53] Sometimes it's personal, sometimes it's not even that. Sometimes it's not personal. Sometimes it's just, amen. [00:29:59] I ain't got nothing to talk about. [00:30:02] I don't have nothing to talk about right now. [00:30:06] And then. And then, you know, some people just want to hear your voice or some people just want to know that you're okay and things like that, and that's cool. But you might be in a space where you've been super cool all week, and you want to finish up that week by just having you some. Some you time. [00:30:27] And they call in the middle of your peace time and just don't pick up. You, You. You deserve that. You deserve to control everything, man. And maybe control is the wrong word, but just, you know, I. Yeah, that's the feds, they gonna date. They thank y'all, shout out to y'all message, look. And as soon as they pass me, they turn the lights off. [00:30:57] Sometimes you. Hey, no. Comes with no explanation. There's nah. You know what I'm saying? And even before you get to the nah, just be like, all right, it ain't nothing to really talk about, bro. You know, I don't want to talk right now. Just call people back, you know, and whether you. And it's up to you whether you want to explain to them, like, hey, this is why I didn't answer the phone call, you know, this is why this is, you know, it's up to you to do that. I. I sometimes do that. Most of the time I don't, you know, Most of the time I just call back, like, oh, yeah, I Missed your call. I don't know what's cracking, you know, outside of that, you ain't got to say nothing. Is. People got to understand boundaries. People got to understand that it's not. Not necessarily like it's a luxury or it's a. It's. It's a major thing or a privilege to call you, but it's like, you know, dog, it's. [00:31:55] Don't take it personal, you know what I'm saying? Unless, you know it's some type of differences or smoke between y'all too, then, oh, you know what it is to me, if you really want to get in touch with a person and they don't answer the phone, leave a voicemail, leave a voice message, you know what I'm saying? Like, let them know the reason why you called, and that'll probably give you. That'll probably give them a reason to call you back faster. [00:32:29] But, you know, like I said, you don't really have to move when you don't. When you don't want to. But I do. I still think you have a responsibility of making sure people know, like, hey, you know, still love there. You know what I'm saying? Don't. Don't disappear to where people gotta call other people looking for you. You know what I mean? If you have that type of relationship with them, if you have a tight relationship with them like that, if y'all used to talking on a normal basis or something like that, or is, you know, more than enough times of them get in touch with you easily. Don't make it. Don't, don't. Don't get to a point to where these niggas is trying to get in contact with you and they worried about you. Not that, but I think you should set a standard and a wall that people should respect. [00:33:23] And that might come with a little bit of maturity and that might come with a little bit of getting older, but you can start that right now. No matter if you 18, 20, 27, 32, you know what I'm saying? 39, 41. Like, set the standards, set the wall, set the barriers, all of that. Let the know. Sometimes you can let a nigga know without even using words. [00:33:47] You know, you could raise. You could discipline your kids without physically hitting them or even verbally talk, you know, talking to them. You could just get them that look, Mom's got it, Dad's got it. You know what I'm saying? Just look at them dead in their eyes like, you know. [00:34:09] You know, that's the same thing with people. [00:34:15] If they've been around you enough, or if they feel like they know you enough, they should know ain't playing around. [00:34:22] Ain't playing around at all. So enjoy your life as best as you could, man. And enjoy every birthday. I am. You know, I don't want to do too much for my birthday. This is my first time actually traveling on my birthday. Like, this is a family vacation for my birthday and for Christmas. And I love it. I love it. I'm probably gonna do more of it, you know? Yeah, we probably won't. We probably won't ever go, you know, we'll probably never go back to the traditional. [00:34:54] You know, the traditional Christmas and stuff like that. Probably still put up a tree and stuff like that. Things of that nature, but we might just travel, you know what I'm saying? I ain't taking my family to different places. Long as we got a pull in a Jacuzzi, we good, you know what I'm saying? So, yeah, man, happy birthday to me. And also, I'm not going to get out of here without saying happy birthday to one of my OGs. May he forever rest in peace. To my dad. I mean, I was born on his birthday. We share the same birthday, so. [00:35:29] Got to say happy birthday to Pops. [00:35:32] And to be honest, I haven't talked to Pops in a long time. Like, sometimes I talk to my mom. Sometimes I talk to my moms when I'm, like, down and stuff like that. And as y'all know, sometimes I sit in total silence when I want to remember how my mom voice sound, you know what I mean? And that's just me. Some people who have lost parents probably don't have the same issue that I have, you know what I mean? But, you know, I. I try not to, because at one point, I used to think about my parents, like, every day. I used to think about them every day. No matter what time of day it was, I used to think about them every day, you know what I mean? And now it's gotten to the point where it'd be some days, where it'd be weeks, where I don't. I don't think I've ever gone a month without thinking about my parents. But there'd be times where I'm not thinking about them. And then with that happening and life goes on and stuff like that, I'm like. I had to sit in silence and just think, really think. Like, dog, I need to remember how my mom voice sound. And that's crazy. That might sound to certain people. That's the truth, you know, I haven't had. I haven't talked to my moms or seen my moms since 2008. And my mom and my dad passed away in 2011, so I haven't talked to them in so long, you know, but happy birthday to Pops. Love you. And mom, you know. Hey, I made it to 42, and I'm taking your grandkids to Mexico for my birthday and for Christmas, so shout out. And 12 Cal just hit me up. I'm on my way. 12 Cal. [00:37:21] And 43 is on the way, man. 43 is on the way.